yeahs yeahs...woke up at 1 plus today.finally i can slp...haha.

went punggol intchg to meet dear. he was like late for 20 mins..ayess...nvm...went punggol plaza to "study" ya in the end we end up eating and watching the baby show...haha.sat in front of the big plasma tv outside the elctrical shop to watch fingind nemo..hahhaha.

went punggol end aftwards till the sky was dark...kena alot of mosquito bites...walked to intchg and back home agian...ayess...love him!

wuhaha wuahaha!!! i love TP!! hehex...today was lecture marathon! 6 lectures and 5 diff subjects...

went PS to meet dear today...lol..we meet almost evryday..hehex...love him.ate tako ball outside...and he left his IT library bk at the place we ate...it was onli till at SK stattion when he realised the bk was still at PS...LOLS!!! so he panicked and almost cried out...haha.but in the end the bk was still there..$50...haha.

then went to top up EZ link card.my card got stuck in the machine...lol...den asked the person to help...hahahaha.today was damn funny...we laughed and laughed and laughed...got our PoSB card mixed up also...die dunno whose is whose now...ahhahahah.really enjoyed the time we spent tgt...i've nv felt so loved b4....hmms...

tilll then...
CIBTC trng tmr!!!

finally! gosh my comp is lagging.@#%#%$%% humph!

haha.lecture onli starts at 12 today!!so happy.can slp till late late...

went for less than 2 hours of pc orienteering.all we did was chg password and get to know where to get our online notes...sianx..

went TM to meet dear aft lecture...went all the way to lavendar to get his I/C...lol...then went suntec...haha...asked him treat me gelera ice cream he realli treat me..hahaha =))went carrefour..then as usual there'll be pianos/keyboard display...so i went to play..haha.canon in d...funniest thing is tt he too touched ah..lol..shed tears..tsk tsk..haha

aft suntec went back to NYp wif him...gg to meet yiying and jocelyn there while waiting for jor to finish his class..hhaha.we lied to the yiying;s fren tt im their new classmate and they actually believed..haha.yiying class is so fun...not like mine...tsk...

waited for jor then took 72..actually wanted to go home..but in the end we did'nt know where to stop and it was raining so we went back all the way to TM again...LOLS...so damn funny la...then..we went to take neoprint..hahaha.it was funny...

took the 1st machine then din know where to choose the 6 photos..in the end the machine anyhuw choose for us...lol...cannot make it sia...took the other machine ltr on...so he spent like $17..haha...went home aft tt..he sent me home...yupss...haah.it;s very nice of him...=))was very happy yst...

wheheee..im so freezing cold now...currently in tp's lab..haha.nothing to do now..the lecturer allow us to surf the net!!! hahahahahah.cool sia...so cold so cold...arghx...having stomachache..cannot tahan alr...

jus finish some survey...haha evryone's surfing the net on friendster on blah blah blah now...hehe

was npcc day parade yst...yeah CIT's were all called down for duty..and yiying ah.she still thinks we're gg to be the supporting contingent! LOL!!!

haha anw it was fun..had a buffet lunch first..den a briefing for the duties allocation.haha all gals were sent to be the grand stand ushers...majority of the guys were sent to do carpark duties...

ushered the parents and guests to their seats...erm...abit dunno wad to do cas it was our first time...yeah and we had other CI's ( not trainees) with us..and from wad yiying said..some of them were like despising us..making negative comments on our uniform..pls la...i personally think our uniform is like 100% better den some of them!!! WTH...so wad if our rank now is only a drill cloth...bleahx! wait till i become the parade commander or flag party or contingent commander!!
and i swear i will..hahaz

the parade was nice..but the dance was abit...jus think it shld'nt be there...haha...so messy.and the dancing cadets were all dragging their shoes making irritatting noises...anw...really honoured to be ushers in the grand stand..HAHA.cas we sat and watch thru the whole parade.and i think tt official tag is so cool. it's $10 for 1.haha.

were only dismissed at ard 9 plus i think..cas we had to carry boxes and boxes of mineral waters..and it was heavy/ok...took bus with alpha squad home then...

till then
shen ming shi chou lou de! hahahahah

tired tired tired...last day of orientation!! went down early to practise da cheer...haha.was late but early...haha.cant wake up...had a final something between all the diff course in AS(Applied science)...it was water bombing...haha.we had to bomb the big loliipop made of newspaper till it breaks...hhaa.had alot of fun throwing bombs to other grps...


had also telematch between all the diff schs...IT..biz...engin...des..haha.gosh we really cheered like there was no tmr...tt kinda of feeling was undescribable...everyone was so high and enthu...guess Tp's really good in cheering.lols...


went over to bedok reservior.it was like next to Tp only...haha.it was the starting of Regatta. consisting of dragon boating and cheering competition...woah the few of us really cheered like mad...the whole stage was vibrating..but in the end we still lost to design sch..=)
ard 7.45..went to sports complex..it was the JAM AND HOP!!! omg!! it was totally like clubbing..they were like stopping some ppl to check the clothe and bags..had to walk in and the hall was spilt into the dancing flr by a big board...the lights were all so damn cool and there was like a live band! with the instruments and all..damn cool. the few of us...mainly gals jus kept jumping and jumping along wiith the music..lol...it was so fun..


went Tm again to meet him.i was apparently late..haha..met al-lene coincidently haha...yup den he send me home agian aft dinner.....=) pity the ez link $$...tmr's npcc day...gotta go down for duty..hais hais...yeah can meet alpha squad agian =)))


till then
i've got so much thing to prepare for tmr...


A.S WILL WIN THE WAR!!!
A.S WILL WIN THE WAR!!!
A.S WILL WIN THE WAR!!!
i love TP! i love AS!!!

gosh im so tired today...was alr half dead when we reached tP...met izzudin at the sk bus stop...hhaha..learnt mass dance today!!! mann it was so damn nice and fun...especially the moves ans song..."open open clap clap.."haha

gonna have cheer competition tmr...shld'nt haf been so enthu and loud on the first day...kena choosen by our grp OL to go...tot was only jus shout shout loud loud can alr...
who noes!!gotta stay back aft the whole thing to practise the actions...mann..the actions are...urgh...i cant do it...im not tt kind tt can shake and twist...omigod...will be "performing" in front of the whole sch!..mama....urgh urgh...the guys are too over enthu...no comments...

end off at like 7.30 plus plus...went TM to meet jor-egg. had LJS for dinner...went arcade...played (he) some spiderman game...LOL ! haha. so cute...accompanied me home again...hahas........................................................................................ya...dunno wad to say...really enjoyed the time spent wif u...

yeahs! went for orientation today neh! met up wif clarice...haiyo...tt gal ah..late late late...missed 2 buses...so many ppl...anw..orientation was both fun and boring...the year 2 OL really did put alot effort in organinsing this and decorating the lecture rm...our grp was suppose to be vampire...and our enemy--lycan..yup...

haha.played games and all lahx...nothg special...had some water balloons game...and NOT FAIR!! im the one who always tio the most. kena pour on the most...maybe tt's my retribution lah...haha...for saboing ppl with my GREAT IDEAs!

yeah...my class has a no..of 23 ppl. 20 gals and 3 guys!!! hahaha.poor them...anw...met up with jordan at tampines mall aft orientation...simply jus walked ard the whole of TM...then...he send me home...took bus no3 with me all the way to punggol...yupss...it was a loonnnggg journey=)


my internet is seriously lagging...humph! grrk!


till then..i love my OL and my blog song!

ohh gosh...i cant go back to my slp now...he broke with his gf...omg...omg...
how come...all the things tt yiying said and predicted came true!! gosh...

yea today's PTE day!!! happy PTE day big bird!! erm...16 months liao huh? think so..haha. huw time flies...

freaked out when i realised it was the 18th today! which means tt orientation's tmr! grrks...don feel like gg..no mood to go...and shucks..i haven settle my ez link stuff yet...gotta force myself to go cp interchg as well as swensens to get my $$$.hehe.sianx...tmr will be start of my poly life...hais...agree wad jocelyn said in her blog..ij friends cant follow u forever..we've to step out of our comfort zone. yup...be thankful tt clarice is in the same course as me...hope we'll end up in the same class also...hahax...

arghx** heartbreak!!! all my files are gone!! wtf***..arghx!!! those are my hardwork...hais...

tell me wad shld i do...im too lost in the world of relationship...yst night was too much for me...and i dun think im dreaming..*slaps* no im not...it really did happen to me! yes me!

but no matter wad...before he settles his own relationship stuff...im not gg to give him a definite answer...

a friend is like a bridge over troubled waters...where are u...?

went to play pool today with alpha squad..not all came thou...but it was fun.didn't actually wanted to go...but huzaifah kept calling me to go...cas if i go he can see yiying ma...lol...

played pool...haha.funny.alpha squad is always funny full of craps...especially when huzaifah is with yiying tt time...

hais...so troubled now..wad shld i do...hais...hais..hais...only yiying can understand what im gg thru...i can even make a mind map out of our situation! lols...

sad...dad reformatted the whole comp!!! and it's like so many things are gone!!! hais....all the photos i took..i cant live w/o those memories...tsk tsk...hais...talking to jordan on hp now...dunno wad to talk...talk crap...feel so weird...hais...

shall stop here...hais

was suppose to meet alpha at 7am today at hougang intchg. but i tot was 8 am so at 6.45...yiying called me and say i was late...jumped out of my bed sia. hurry rushed down to meet yiying and the rest.lol.we were not the last.heng ah...

went a long way.stopped at causeway point to buy breakfast.went to HTA and we were late. brava..charlie...delta was alr all fall in le....got scoldings from amanda maam...hais..we mus haf disappoint her alot...

went to classroom immediately we started our test.haha.was quite easy for me...yup aim to get A+++.hehes...aft tt had footdrill test...

woah...marched sooOOo damn long...hardly have anytime to breathe...felt like vomitting...lols...had the MOI aftwards...so dry...went causeway to have our dinner with alpha...
felt so bonded at this dinner.no words can describe this...went to take neoprints...played arcade...and not forgetting the rest of the guys playing tricks...walao eh and me and yiying really believed....

two shocking things i heard today....
1) abt some guy called adrian...
2)somebody like my gd fren!

wahahahahahs.alpha..for consecatively 9 days....9 whole days...we see one another evryday....those scoldings and hardship we went thru...nothing can describe it...


some nice quotes tt i've gotten from the course
-evrybody has a part to play in doing our best in evrything
-a chain is only as strong as it's weakest link & it applys to a team
-it is not the result of what you can achieve in dis camp whereas it's the process we can enjoy
-teamwork is not working with someone whom u can work with, it's abt working with someone you can't work with
-a friend is like a bridge over troubled waters
-it's not wad kind of card you get, it's how u play them

i love squad alpha J06....

yeahs!!!! im back from CIBTC...it was like hell and sometimes heaven in hell...learnt soOOOOOooo many things to become a good Ci...though the course was physically and mentally tiring..but i've nv regretted gg. 7 days and 6 nights...yes! we survived!!!

was in alpha group with yiying.felt so happy!!!actually it was majority area 7 ppl.lol.

day1
nothing much...tekan tekan and tekan....our group was ALPHA!!! and surprisingly there was only 3 gals and 13 guys....and the whole batch had only 14 gals out of 60 plus guys...

dAY 2
kena the one to say the npcc pledge...start of PT and mass run...uni inspection...tons of lecture...

day 3
Pt and Pt run and run...so tiring...wan to die liao...then had baton drill...blah blah blah

day 4
was very happy alr..cas it was alr the 4th day!!!! did armsdrill! and guess wad we used the rifle M16...cool sia. it was heavy at first but still we haf to tahan. the CII's took the rifle as if the rifle was only 0grams...after that had sword drill lesson. was so happy! cas it was ceromonial sword!!!! was the first time holding it...so excited =)) did those saluting and drills with the sword...was really very happy tt we get the chance and privilege...

day 5
did rifle drill agian and had dry shoot with the .38 revolver.learnt first aid also...

day6
was even happier cas we can finally say one more day left!!!!!had armsdrill and dry shoot again...sians...learnt more commands for the rifle drill.

day 7
it's day 7 !!!! evryone jus cant wait to go home...had the live shoot today. 30 rounds. 10 rounds on rectangle target at 9m. 10 rounds in rectangle target at 15 m. 10 rounds on bullseye target. was very scared and stress at first did not did up to my expectation. scored 3 bullseyes! yeah=)) think i had the highest number of bullseye. yiying had like 16 bullet in the rectangle target!!! psycho one her....wahahah at least we did better than the guys!

will definitely miss this CIBTC...washing clothes evry night...having constipation...waking up evryday at 4.30 am to polish boots and ironing uniform..then 6 am do PT run like mad.our hair was nv dried most of the time. imagine jogging and marching evrywhere we go!! and home team academy is like so damn BIG!

overall...i really enjoyed the course and our squad ALpha/ sisters squad with tt act cute action.

4th of april...today's the 5th month since tt day...it was 4am when evrything changes...

it was my fault...we shld'nt have even started at first...i shld'nt even have liked you this kind of person...it was my fault...i brought this kind of regret upon myself...now this regret will stay with me for the rest of my life...

shld i think tt this a regret? or shld i say..im a fool for tt past 5 months for trusting and loving him so much and i died without knowing the reason...the only words tt he cld say was..sorry...sorry...sorry...and it jus end of like this....im such a fool....

papalapapalalalalalalalala

how many more days to CI course? i dun wanna know.
have been polishing and polishing and polishing my precious boots so tt it'll SHINE!
argh....stupid..it just shine abit. not up to my expectation.

shall send my boots to extreme makeover! *nuts...there's no such thing...

hais hais hais...face up to reality mann...it's doomsday.so regret i broke my name tag 2 years ago...arghx...stressed up.

8 days more...hais...

went msia yst. bought a bag and shoe. spent most of my time looking for camp stuffs...stress.wonder how's yiying doing now.haha.she has started polishing her boots..and god bless me. i haven even started polishing mine. will polish ltr. if not..it's doomsday on the 8th.im having giant butterflies in my stomach now...arghx...